I'm finally taking steps to limit myself on the internet and focus on myself.
The other night I had a moment where I vented to someone over something so bloody unneccessary while I was half-asleep. Once I had fully woken up and became a bit more aware, I took a moment to step back and went "...yeah I think I need ot take breaks."
Most of this stemmed fromme thinking about an ex-friend who I was close with deciding to unfriend and block me after we had a spat (I won't deny I was in the wrong myself in it) and how she had refused to apologize for her own wrongdoings when I did.
I don't want to linger too much on the details or the person as a whole and I do hope her own recovery endeavors are successful, but the fact she decided to do a 180 on me still stings, even after months later, and of course my brain turns to intrusive thoughts over it.
It will take time for me to fully get over it, and the thought that neurodivergent people take longer than most others is something that'll forever perplex me, alas some of us are cursed with it and well this is what you get. /lh
Taking the right steps for my mental health is the best thing I can really do for myself, and I got a schedule set up for when I step away from the internet for a bit, along with some apps and extensions to block programs/apps and websites when I'm on my downtime.
Doing so will help me focus on commissions and movies/anime/tv shows I wanna catch up on too, along with visiting my older sister once in a while as well.
It's a slow process but better to work slow than to work too fast.